This has been a good weekend. Been in a nesting phase and have been cleaning and organizing like crazy. Also been in an incredibly emotional phase. Friday night I told Mike about how I feel I don't know how to communicate with him here lately. So we sat at the dinner table and we talked, we argued, I cried, we laughed and ended it all ended in a hug. This morning I had another meltdown and cried about how how I wanted to be a good wife and mother and how I feel so inadequate at the wife part, so how am I going to be both a good wife and mother? Mike was so sweet to re-assure me that I will be a good mommy, that I am a good wife and that everything is going to be ok...and he knew when to just hug me and rub my shoulders.... On the way to church I apologized to Elam for his mommy getting so upset lately. I felt so guilty because I should be speaking calming words and instead have just been upset. I so want him to feel how much I love him, not feel my anger or frustration :-(
Other than the meltdowns, this weekend was very nice. It rained like crazy Saturday morning and was nice to just sit, read and relax a little. We ran a few errands in between rain showers and then I cleaned and then we met a friend at the $2 theater to watch "Hunger Games". I have not read the books yet, so will need to do that soon. Had a yummy dinner of chipotle-orange shrimp over rice and a salad followed by some dishpan cookies with mom,dad and Mike and then fell asleep watching tv.
We have another doctors appointment tomorrow. I am looking forward to seeing more pictures of my baby boy! He has been really active lately, especially at night. Guess he is preparing me for when he arrives, lol. I hope to actually get some pictures up tomorrow. Not much else going on. Oh, we are about to start on the nursery and will be finishing up our registry next week:-)
