Once you know, you have to change

I am really wrestling with myself right now. It may not seem like a big deal, but it is. It's funny how once you know the truth you can no longer hide behind ignorance. The truth: When we choose to sin we choose to allow Satan to manifest his nature through us. Hmmm. So every time I choose to not forgive, every time I choose not to repent I am allowing Satan to manifest his nature through me. Ouch. How many times have I felt justified in my anger and in my accusations? Turns out I'm not justified...I'm walking in sin. Another thing I'm learning is to put blame where blame is due. Too many times we look at life's problems (at least I did) and say "God, why did you allow that to happen?" or "God, you must have had a reason for that" or "God must want me to learn something from this". Some of you will read this next sentence and think 'oh goodness, she's lost it'....I have learned that although God's overall plan will take place, God does NOT always get His will. What?!?! Ok, follow me for just a minute... Is God's will accomplished on earth as in heaven? Do people go to hell? Some perish. We all sin. Definitely not in God's will. The Bible says that it is not God's will for ANY to perish.We are in an all out war. Satan, the enemy, has come to steal, kill and destroy. We must tear down the strongholds of Satan and stop blaming God! Crap happens. Painful things happen to us and to loved ones. But in the midst of that we cling to the One who has overcome. We look to the one who offers life abundant! We learn that freedom is found in forgiving. One of the things that has been taught to me recently is that EVERY good and perfect gift is from God! If it is not good and perfect it is not from God. Once I REALLY realized that ,it makes discernment so much easier! So, this feeling of annoyance that I feel entitled to right now? Do I forgive or do I cling to entitlement? If I want to be forgiven, I will forgive.