So apparently I have some competitive issues that didn't go away like I thought:) Last night we had a softball game. It was the third one of the season and we had won the two before it. I don't know why last night was an off night but I did absolutely horrible! Walked God knows how many batters and just watched the third strike go accross the plate...didn't even swing. I was half tempted to use the excuse of the pitching rubber being moved up 6 feet since the last game but it doesn't excuse my hitting. I don't even think it's the losing that gets to me....it's the feeling of letting everyone down that just weighs me down.
As soon as the game was over I grabbed my keys from Mike and high tailed it to Starbucks to self medicate the crappy mood I was in. I ordered an iced coffee and a chocolate chip cookie (which they gave me for free by the way) and went home to Mike who tried to calm me down. Yeah, about that. God love him. I know he was just trying to encourage me and he didn't want me to beat myself up (sorry hon, it's what I do...I know it's not healthy, but it is what it is....definitely have some past issues tied to this though and know I need to work on it) but I let it upset me more than I should so I decided maybe, just maybe, I shouldn't be around anyone at the moment....so at 9:00 I left for the gym. I didn't even work out. I had gotten a call from Holly and just sat in the parking lot talking with her. It really calmed me down though to get my mind off the game so I went home, watched the Biggest Loser finale with Mike and fell asleep.
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