Today I feel broken. My heart feels torn. But I know it's a good thing! I can't tell you how much I have just felt the Lord working in my life. Over the past couple of days I have asked the Lord to show me where my heart needs to be broken. I want to be broken for the things that the Lord's heart is broken over. And He has honored that request...and now my heart is heavy. Heavy with the realization of the true intentions of my heart, heavy with the struggles that friends and family are going through, heavy with the desire to be fully consumed by the maker of Heaven and earth. It is just constantly on my mind, pulling my spirit into prayer again and again and again.
Also, I have never been more acutely aware of the spiritual warfare that is going on around us ALL the time....especially when I allow the Lord to work in my life......
~Ephesians 6:12 - For our struggle is not against flesh and blood but against rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against spiritual forces of evil in heavenly places~
I guess I've always been aware of angels and demons but when you consider there is a REAL battle going out there for our souls...for our lives...and WE are the prize it makes me want to fight for and defend my marriage,my friendships, my church, my country and my character. So how do we fight and defend? Pray. Bathe EVERYTHING in prayer. I have "prayed" all my life and yet I feel that at the age of 26 my eyes have finally been opened to what it really is...it is not something that starts with "Dear God" and ends in "Amen". It is not just saying thank you for a meal that I have taken for granted yet again. It is not a quick sentence said in church asking God for healing of a friend. It is something your entire being is consumed with. My heart has cried out when I can't find the words.....
~Romans 8:26 - In the same way, the spirit helps our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express~
Right now it is something that isn't quenched...my spirit wants more and more. I honestly think it's because I have been so spiritually dehydrated for too long and my spirit is being revived and learning how to really pray (for the longest time I have felt like the "babbling pagan" mentioned in Matthew 6:7)
So here is to being broken;To love what the Lord loves and to hate what the Lord hates. Here is to becoming a true prayer warrior (1 Thessalonians 5:17) and stepping up for battle when your friendships are in jeopardy, your church is struggling, your marriage is being attacked and your faith is being tested. Here is to truly living in the Spirit. I hope you have a wonderful day!
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I hear ya on that one! I'm trying to be more intentional in my prayers, rather than letting them become ritual, and it is a lot harder than I thought. Have you read Praying God's Word by Beth Moore? I've read parts of it and have really learned from it. It might be worth checking out if you like supplemental material. Hang in there!
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